It's been how long?

Wow!  I can't believe it's been a month since I last blogged!  This seems to happen to me quite often. I go through periods of time where I am writing daily and then seem to hit a wall of sorts and just plain blank out.

Well, here I am. And how am I doing since we last met?
Better.
Kind of.

What does that mean, exactly?  Well, I am now on Wellbutrin (I have PMDD) and am feeling a bit better around my cycle. No one had to run for their lives. Progress! I've been on the Wellbutrin for about a month now and at first I really didn't think the dosage would need to be adjusted, but now I am thinking I just may have to go up a bit. I'm still not feeling 100% in my mental capacity, but I am going to give it a bit more time.

I did something I don't typically do this morning. I put on make up. Now, you may be thinking "WHAT?!  She doesn't wear makeup?" Well, yes and no. I don't wear make up on a regular basis because I am allergic to it. I am allergic to every brand that I have found that claims to be hypoallergenic and organic and, and, and...So, I usually keep the makeup wearing for special occasions.

As I was saying, I decided to put on a bit of makeup today to make myself feel better. I thought if I did that I may help push myself into a better state of mind. It worked.

Now, why else haven't I been writing?
Well, because I am embarrassed and ashamed that I am here writing about my weight loss and I'm just stuck. I know a lot of it has to do with my mental state, but I also know that my mental state will improve some if I just get on with it.

That all being said, I did start my gluten free fun last week. It's particularly hard for me because I am allergic to rice and rice is put in everything as it is, but is used a lot more in things that are gluten free. So, last week I just let myself ride it out however it went. Just to get used to it again. This week is about planning. My husband was nice enough to go through and plan our dinners out for the week. Now I just have to make enough for leftovers for lunch the following day.

What about the gym?  What about it? I haven't been in too long. Some of it has to do with the fact that I am bored with my workout. So very, very bored. I have a hard time with my feet (in physical therapy again). Still tied to the bike. The weight training stuff is difficult too because I keep hurting my arm. I really need to have a personal trainer, but the trainer at my gym is the one who pushed me to get hurt in the fist place. I just need to buck up and find another trainer.

Alright, enough rambling from me for one day. I'm off to prep tonight's dinner and am going to call one of the newer gyms in the area for info on their rates and personal trainers.