The Joys Of PMDD

TMI alert!!!

Yes! My title today is sarcastic!  PMDD sucks!  I hate it! I hate what it does to my mood. I hate that it makes me and everyone around me downright miserable.

The "good" news though is that I recognize it when it's coming on and can send out a warning signal to everyone around me to WATCH OUT!  The most difficult symptom to handle would be the anger. There is little to no wiggle room with me when I'm having a bad month. The littlest thing will set me off. Seriously, things that wouldn't make any sane person even blink will set me off. I have to keep constant control of my thoughts and be very mindful that I'm going crazy for a few days.

It's not horrible every month. In fact, the last 2-3 months haven't been as bad as "usual" but this month is an entirely different story. Everything is difficult.  It's difficult to sit here and think of something to say. And even if I have something brilliant to tell you, it's much too much work to type it. Chores? Yeah. That is over-the-top overwhelming. The simplest of tasks is almost like you've told me I have to build a rocket in a day. Seriously!  Loading the dishwasher is that "painful". Ugh.

Again, the good news is that I recognize it and am able to at least warn everyone. That's a blessing. The other piece of good news (I mentioned the other day) is that my doctor gave me an antidepressant to use during this time.  She told me she has a few patients who use 1/2 a dose during the rough days and it's enough to get them through. This is something I have been asking her if I could do...she was never up for the idea but for some reason she agreed this time. YEAH!  So, I took my first dose yesterday. It does take a few days (DRs will tell you up to a month, but I usually notice it right away) to get into the system. I'm feeling a little better today over how I was feeling yesterday and hopefully by tomorrow I'll be feeling more normal. And the great thing is that once TOM arrives in a few days, I can come off!  Here's hoping it works!


Alright, enough about that!
I am really excited about something!  I ordered some (much needed) jeans last week. I ordered two pair: one for now and one a size smaller.  Guess what I'm doing? I'm sending the one for now back!  The size smaller FITS! They are a little tight in the waist, but the button!  YEAH! I'm also sending a top back because it's probably two sizes too big!  Yeah me!

So, it's not all bad around here. I promise my mood will improve in a few days. I'm sure you've noticed my moodiness. Sorry 'bout that. I'm working on it.

Have a great weekend!