The million dollar question

To medicate or not to medicate?

Well, the answer is to NOT medicate. Sadly, I am coming off of the Wellbutrin. I sent off an email to the doctor earlier in the week because my ears are ringing. I have partial hearing loss with tinnitis as it is so this added ringing just isn't fun. My poor kids, I'm constantly asking them to speak up. They are tired of having to repeat themselves (maybe they'll learn something from that - doubt it!). So, with the tinnitis and the other side effects, we're opting to get me off of the Wellbutrin. Watch out world!  ;-)

My doctor is reluctant to put me on anything else. She is so overly concerned with my gaining weight. I was on Fluoxetine for four years and didn't gain anything due to the medication. I'm not worried about it. I've been obese my whole entire adult life. Hell, I've been obese since I was an early teenager, I'm not concerned about adding pounds, I'm more concerned about getting along in life. I wish she'd get that! Anyway, once I am weaned off, I will meet with her about getting on to something else.

Until then, it's back to eating right for me!
I didn't do too bad this week. I have one more day to go before I weigh in on Monday. I've decided to just start the slate clean. My new day one was last Monday. I'm filing away the weight loss from last year and starting anew. I think it's the best thing to do as I've been up and down the same 10-15 pounds since December.

Today was the first day that I've really felt my weight gain. It's just a slight gain, but I could feel it in my jeans. My belly feels so incredibly full. I'm so bloated and could hardly button my pants. My husband and I did a lot of work around the house (spring cleaning sort of stuff), and I could hardly move. I felt like I did when I was nearly forty pounds heavier!  I haven't felt this bad in a very, very long time!  I'm *almost* feeling hopeless. *Almost* ready to say to hell with it and do the drastic thing and go for the consult for the surgery. But, I'm not going to do that. I'm going to stay the coarse and will make progress.

Hubs had his check-up last week and was given a month to get things in order before he's put on blood pressure meds. He hates meds as much as I do so he's ready to get going with me. That will be a huge help to me!  We've done the weight loss thing together in the past and have done really well. He always feels bad though because he loses so much faster than I do. He's a typical male. Lucky SOB! HAHA. I have to fight for every ounce...but as long as I have a sparring partner, I think I will be OK.

I have LoseIt.Com open in my browser. All ready for more logging. We did our meal planning this morning for the week ahead. All is ready to get into week two.

A little Yoga

I hate my body right now.  Mainly my right foot. The Plantar fasciitis is acting up again in a big way! Last night I hopped on the treadmill armed to do a great workout. During the warm-up I felt a pop in my heal and that was the end of that. I iced my foot and did an upper body workout while sitting in my chair.  

Today I am feeling OK.  Just OK. My heal is sore, it's best that I let it rest. I'm feeling sorry for myself right now.  I need to exercise. Not just for the weight loss, but also for the depression. I find my mood is much improved after a workout. Doing smaller workouts such as the one I did last night, doesn't seem to boost the much-needed endorphins my brain needs. 

That all being said, I decided to pick up a Yoga DVD today. I've done a little Yoga on the Wii.  (just a side note that I love the Wii fit - if only my board would work consistently!).  The pickin's were slim so I ended up going with Rodney Yee's Yoga for Beginners. I watched a good chunk of the video before trying. Wanted to know what I was getting into before getting into it. :) 

Doing the exercises proved to be tougher than I first thought. The instruction is fifteen minutes long. The time went fairly quick, even when I was feeling the burn. I'll add the Yoga to my routine, especially right now when I have very little choices in what I can actually do. I know how important it is for me to stay with some sort of routine. If I don't, I will not only get back into my old eating habits, but will probably also need to start back on the meds. Can't. Have. That.