Birthday Gift

It's my birthday week! I don't usually "brag" about my birthday but I am this time because I "received" a wonderful gift and I am giving myself a great gift! I went to Boston last week for my six month check up for my Cancer-NOT-Cancer thing (that's what I call it, MGUS is what it really is).  Anyway, my appointment went well.  All the labs I could receive back that day were all "fine" but I still had to wait for the important ones to come back.  I received a call today from my doc that things are getting better!  My numbers are still dropping!!!  It feels so great to know that I'm getting closer and closer to not having the "C" word...at least not the kind that I was facing.  Huge relief.

My gift to myself?   I'm getting back on track.  I needed a mental break.  I really did.  This is hard work and takes a lot of mental preparation.  I was feeling burned out and wanted to throw in the towel but I'm not going to.  I've taken the last 2-3 weeks to evaluate where I was, where I am, and where I want to be. I'm fairly certain that I'll need these mental breaks every now and again. I have a long way to go to be at "normal weight".  This is going to be a process.  Just need to deal with it in small chunks at a time. 

While on break, I've mostly been OK with foods.  The choices have been getting worse and worse but the amounts have been within the reasonable range.  I was craving some mac & cheese from a local restaurant so I had hubs take me there last night for my birthday.  The mac & cheese is so good! They make it with five kinds of cheese, top it with bread crumbs and bake it to a golden goodness.  The top is crunchy while the inside is gooey.  The potion size is obscene. It was obscene when I was eating more but it's even more obscene now!  I didn't care, I wanted it so that's what I got.  We were able to make four meals out of it though.  I had a portion last night for dinner, another bit for lunch today while I also shared with my husband and son.  Could I have had the whole thing?  Probably. I opted to keep it within reason though.

So, tomorrow is "Weigh in Wednesday" and it's my back on the wagon I go.  I needed the break but am ready to bring on another phase of this journey.  I'm six months away from my next check-up and I would love to be that much closer to not having to worry about the "C" word.

Happy Birthday to me!  Next year, I hope to be nearly 1/2 my size.