Thursday, May 30, 2013

Day 11

51 to go...

Today I'm having one of those "feeling fat" kind of days.

Isn't that silly?

I am fat!

Today though, I'm really feeling it. I feel like I did when I was 50 pounds heavier. My pants are tight from the bloating. My ring is tight from being overheated (I would have had to take it off by now at 50 pounds heavier - there is a silver lining after all). I'm just miserable inside my skin today.  I hate these kind of days. Don't you?

I'm not having a bad day. I'm just hot; and being hot makes me cranky.

Medical update:
My blood work came back normal.  Going in for an ultrasound of my thyroid tonight to make sure there aren't any nodules growing.  From there, we'll just keep an eye on it and hope that it doesn't grow any larger because normal blood work or not, I'll be on medication. Ugh. I'm not a fan of that idea.

That's all for today. I will leave you now before you think I'm totally nuts. I'm not. Just hot.

Have a happy and healthy day!

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Wednesday Weigh In

Well, I was down a half a pound from last week.  That means I have 4.5 left to go from the 7 I gained a few weeks ago.

Tummy issues update...
I went to the doctor this morning.  She is running some tests on my thyroid and I'm having another ultrasound on it as she agrees that it does seem larger.  She did say though that it could be because my neck is smaller with the weight loss but it won't hurt to take a look-see.

As far as the bloating goes, she thinks it is from that stomach bug I had a few weeks ago.  She noticed I complained about the same thing about a year ago after having the stomach bug.  She explained that sometimes the flora in the stomach gets all out of whack. I do eat a lot of yogurt but that may not be enough.  She suggested taking some Prilosec for a few days. If that doesn't help, she'll run some other tests to see if I may need an antibiotic.  She's not too concerned about it because I had a similar incedent last year.

She was also very pleased with my progress.  She is happy that I'm taking it slow. She said I am more likely to keep it off this way and 50+ pounds is nothing to sneeze at.

Alright, keeping things short and sweet today. It's another rainy, cold day here. I just want to crawl under a blanket and watch the tube. I think that's exactly what the kids and I are going to do this afternoon.

Have a happy and healthy day!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Day 9; 53 to go

Hope you had a great long weekend!

I kept meaning to pop in with a weekend update but I was a bit lazy and didn't feel like it. :)
It rained here for most of the weekend. Saturday we too the boys to an arcade that they have been begging us to go to. We thought it was a perfect day for such a {horrid} activity.  The rest of the day was spent inside playing video games while I did some scrapbooking.

Sunday wasn't much better. The temperature was somewhere in the mid 50's but the rain held up for most of the day. We went to a pool party that day. I froze while the kids jumped in the pool for a little swim. I have a photo of my youngest all bundled up in a coat with his tootsies in the water. Go figure.

Needless to say, this weekend wasn't packed with physical activity!  I think it's good to have a weekend loaded with downtime every once in a while but I'm happy it's over and am looking forward to better weather with more activity in the weeks ahead.

Tomorrow is weigh in day.  I'm suspecting I'll be around the same. I've been doing really well during the day and then night time comes and I make poor decisions. Things weren't too bad until the weekend hit. Even though I watched what I ate for the most part during the day, something would derail me by the end of the day. I just can't seem to get it together!   One of the things I realized (and talked a bit about last week), is that if I have my breakfast later than usual, that throws my day all off track. I learned that the same goes for lunch. I will just have to buckle down and eat around the same time everyday to help keep me on better track.

Even with my set backs, I feel confident that I will find my way back to being 100% committed. I'm here, I'm logging, and I'm still at the gym. I won't give up. I just need time to get my head back in the game.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Day 3, 59 to go

Today is weigh in day.  I was up about 5 pounds.  I'm not too surprised and am not beating myself up about it.  I haven't been going too far overboard but at the same time I haven't been on my game and I'm very dehydrated.  No big deal. It will come back off. No problem.

Moving on.  Yesterday's calories were right around the 1700 mark. Today is closer to 1800. I had a hard time keeping to my normal eating pattern today. This is my son's last week of preschool so I had a last hurrah breakfast with my girlfriends. I was well behaved and ordered a bowl of fresh fruit and some dry wheat toast.  Not a bad start for the day but because I ate later than I normally do, I found myself hungrier faster during the day today which lead me to "eat up" my calories a lot quicker than usual. A lesson learned.  I need to stick to eating at the same time in the morning so I'm not ravenous later.

Exercise for the day was a 1/2 hour of cardio on the treadmill walking at a 3.0, incline of 2.  I want to take it easy with the knee so didn't push it any more than that.

I'm a bit worried about my thyroid.  I was supposed to start thyroid meds back in December if my numbers hadn't leveled out. When I had a blood test in December, my levels were no longer going up and up but rather coming down - not only down but also within normal limits.  I was delighted.  Until now.  I'm noticing that my thyroid is a bit larger than it was (or hopefully my neck is thinner- ha!) and I'm experiencing symptoms of Hashimoto's. The worst symptom is bloating.  My stomach is distended (more than normal), I feel full all the time even when I'm hitting low-blood sugar and have the shakes because I'm so hungry.  I can only eat a little bit at a time because the fullness hurts so much.  I'm thinking it's time to call the doc to have some blood work done. Ugh.

Well, that's it for now.  See! Told ya!  My creative juices aren't flowing. Boring chatter. It helps me to keep inline, so I will keep on keeping on.


Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Day 2, 60 to go

Isn't it great to make a decision and stick to it? I was walking on air yesterday. I made the decision to get back to being serious about making progress and that was that.  I had such clarity yesterday - it was great.

I'm feeling much of the same today.
I'm a bit overwhelmed by other things though.
First and foremost, my thoughts and prayers are with the people in Oklahoma. Mother Nature can be so brutal sometimes.
As far as more personal things go, I have a lot to do today both at home and at work. It's very humid here. Luckily though, the temperature is still pretty low this morning so I was able to get through most of my house work without too much fuss.  I don't do well in the heat, once I get hot you can forget about getting any work out of me!
There is much to be done at work too. I only work two days a week and I hate leaving tons of stuff for the next person to get done.  I guess it's the nature of the business but I still don't like it.  There are only 2 weeks (I think) left before the summer break. It will be nice to have the summer off but I'll be crying without the little extra paycheck. Oh well.

So, back to the task at hand...getting healthy.
Yesterday's workout was great. The only trouble is that my knee is acting up. I couldn't do my normal cardio routine so I ended up walking at a slow pace on the treadmill. My burn wasn't as high but I didn't want to burn out my knee...that would be bad for business.  
The one thing that is worrying me is that I won't be able to spend much time in the gym this summer. First, it's an affordability thing. Without my working and with the kids home wanting/needing to go do other things, there just isn't much wiggle room in the budget. It is also a time issue.  The gym is really small. No child care. My kids are pretty good about sitting on a chair and watching me but I can't have them doing that for 3 hours a week. It stresses me out too much and I won't enjoy getting my workouts in.  Now I have to sit and find time in my schedule to fit in at least 2 days in the gym.  That's on my to-do list this week.

So, yesterday was a workout day and my calories were at 1610 - my budget is 1700. So, overall it was a good day.  Bring on day 2.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Catching up

I'm here.

I've received a number of emails from people checking up on me.  I appreciate it and I thank you for reaching out.  It's great to know that you are pulling for me and wishing me the best.

Not quite sure why I've been so quiet.  Part of it is that I've been a bit busy. Some of it is that I'm trying to step away from the computer - I feel like my life has turned into something I just see on a computer screen. Mostly though, I just don't have much to say.  I feel like I'm saying the same thing day in and day out. My creative juices aren't flowing and that makes for boring chatter.

I've come to the realization though that I need the boring chatter. I do much better when I am here writing about the day-to-day sort of stuff as well as logging over at MyFitnessPal.

To catch up on how I'm doing...I hit 55 pounds down! I also went shopping for some spring/summer clothes and was over the moon when the smaller sizes fit nicely. The "bad news" though is that I've been hanging out at 55 pounds lost for a number of weeks. I'm still at the gym, I'm still watching what I eat for most of the day but come later in the day/evening hours I just turn to some bad habits. I'm not sure if it's total emotional eating, although I suspect some of it is. I just know that I need to stop.

That's what has prompted me to come back today.  I made a decision last night that I am going full-on for the next 61 days. Why 61 days.  That's how many days are left until I go see my love - Jon Bon Jovi, in concert.  I figure that's a short-term goal mark to get to.  With the warmer weather coming in, it does make it easier to eat better. I find it much harder to eat fruits and veggies when it's freezing cold outside.  So, 61 days is my next mark.  My hope is to lose 15-20 pounds by then. Remember, I lose very slowly - even if I'm exercising and eating right on target. I think 15 pounds is a doable goal.

As far as today goes, I've already had 1/2 my water - HUGE accomplishment for me right there!  And I'm about to get into the gym. For this moment right here, life is good.

Speaking of the gym, I have to come up with a new schedule. My little guy finishes preschool for the year this week which means I won't be spending 3 days a week at the gym anymore.  There is just no way that he will sit and let me work out for an hour each day. Thankfully I have great trainers!  They are working on an at-home program for me while I figure out a way to get in there at least twice a week.

Alright, time to hit the gym.  I also have some blogs to catch up on.
Thanks for checking up on me.