A little of this, a little of that

I'm slowly making my way back to better habits. As I am starting to feel better, I'm noticing my eating is also getting better. I have plans to get into the gym later today too. All is just about right with the world.

Well, almost. My poor son has been suffering with a stomach ache since Friday night. He has stomach aches quite often and has been diagnosed with Migraines and abdominal migraines. His gastroenterologist has done every test but the endoscopy on him. He said he may have celiac or a gluten intolerance but his stomach aches aren't that bad, do we really want to put him through the endoscopy?  No. He has seen a neurologist. The neurologist confirmed that he's probably experiencing abdominal migraines along with his regular migraines.

Anyway, he's had this stomach ache since Friday. By Sunday his eyes looked like they were shrinking (I know it sounds crazy, but it's true) and he had the red/black rings around them that said he wasn't sleeping and looked malnourished. I suppose he was the latter; he hardly ate all weekend long. He did finally vomit and felt much better (typical with the migraines), but the discomfort has yet to go away. I sent him to school today anyway. He stayed home yesterday and was fine all day. Needless to say, he is home. The nurse won't take him back until he has a note from the good doctor. Just one more thing to add to the to-do list.

And back to me. I've made a decision. I'm going to go gluten free (again). Here is my reasoning:

1. I was gluten free for about 6-8 months a few years ago and felt pretty good.

2. I came across a study that was done showing a possible link between MGUS and gluten intolerance/celiac disease.

3. I have Hashimoto's (thyroiditis). After doing much reading on that subject, it seems there is a possible link with gluten intolerance.

4. I've read that in general, if you have an auto-immune disease, going gluten free may help with the symptoms.

So, there you have it. I have an appointment with the nutritionist next week to go over some stuff. I will probably carb load a bit this week - all within reason, just want to get my faves in before they are a no-no. We'll see what happens.

FMM: Habits

Good think I'm on the Welbutrin. And even better that it's kicked in. I would be needing it and more today if it wasn't. But, I 'm not talking about it. Nope. Gonna just pretend it was a bad dream. (The game). 

Seriously though, yes, the Welbutrin is kicking in. I have more energy and have found my smile. It feels so good to be me again. Now I can get back down to business and find my way back to healthy eating and the gym. Until then, let's play along with Kenlie's Friend Makin' Mondays over at www.alltheweigh.com

FMM: Habits

1. Are you proactive, or do you procrastinate? I try to be proactive but I always seem to procrastinate. Hey, what can I say, I work better under pressure
2. Do you eat breakfast everyday? If so, what’s a typical meal like? Yes!  If I don't eat breakfast, every one around me would know it. I would be a grouchy-grouch!  I typically have oatmeal or cereal. 
3. How much time do you spend watching TV on an average day?  I can go days and days, sometimes weeks without watching anything. Then I will have a catch-up day and will watch for hours. 
4. Do you talk on the phone, or do you prefer e-mail and/or text messages?  I hate the phone. Most of my communication is via email or FB messages. 
5. Do you exercise in the morning, afternoon or evening? Mostly at night. I try to get a few mornings in where I can. It's juggling a sitter that makes it difficult to do the morning. 
6. Do you take time for yourself regularly? If so, how do you spend that time?  I haven't been taking as much time for myself as I should be. It's all me. My husband tries to get me to take time but I don't. Not sure why. I know I am a better wife and mom when I've taken some "me" time. 
7. How often do you make your bed? a few days a week. I try to make it everyday, but it's just not that important to me. I am more about having the rest of the house in order than having a made bed. 
8. Do you plan meals? If so, how far in advance?  This is something I've been talking about for weeks. I need to plan! I HATE cooking (even more than the phone). If I have a clear plan on what I'm making, it takes a lot of the stress out of the cooking process. I really need to get back to it. 
9. Do you wake up at the same time everyday? Mostly yes. 
10. How often do you brush your teeth? After my shower in the morning and at night. 

Now it's your turn. Visit www.alltheweigh.com and link up your answers. 

Big Game

Finally!

Feeling more and more like myself everyday!

The Wellbutrin is kicking in. I may just be feeling the "alertness" effect, but it's all I needed to get me back.  And the timing couldn't be better. It's the "Big Game". You know, the Superbowl.  I'm whispering that because of all the NFL rules about not saying that word.

I'm a huge fan of the game. Particularly though, I am a Patriots fan. Born and raised in New England, with my father who converted my mother to be a fan. My father has been coaching Pop Warner football since my brother was a kid (so about 20 years of coaching). This was the first season he didn't coach but was itching to get out there. Anyway, he took me to my first game way back in 1986 (ticket prices were just $16 each - YIKES!); I've been hooked ever since.

So, I am very happy to be happy. I'm even happier that I am feeling better in time for the game. I was worried I was going to be a grouchy-grouch. Can't have that.

I've made two cakes for this weekend. The first one was for a work party for my mother.

This second one I just threw together this morning for our little party today. It's not my best work, but it will do. Getting the blue right is so difficult. This will have to do. I also noticed that my hand was very shaky. Not sure if it's from the meds or from making two cakes in such a short amount of time?

And guess what? I have two more to make. One for my son's Cub Scout's Blue & Gold Dinner and one for my father's birthday. Busy. And Caked-out.

As far as game-day celebrations go, we aren't having many people over. It will just be the six of us (my parents live in an in-law apartment on my house) and my girlfriend's family. And at 1/2 time my other friend and their family will be over to finish up the game at my house - they really want to see me in action. I am serious about my football.   Unfortunately, a number of our friend's will be at one house and then we'll be at ours. I am spoiled with my TV. We have a rather large screen and I don't like watching the game any other way. Besides, I like to yell and scream and wouldn't be able to do that at someone else's house. I would feel weird.

About the food.
No healthy stuff here today!
Hubs is making stromboli and calzone.
My friend is bringing chili.
I will be making two kinds of cheese dips.
And then we'll be ordering wings.

Wow. I am full just thinking of all that garbage we'll be eating tonight.

OK. I have to get to cleaning up this huge mess I made this morning making this cake. My kids have also destroyed the living room. A few days ago I would have broken down in tears just thinking about cleaning it all up. Not today though. I am feeling so much better!

Welcome back ME!

Just give me the drugs

Still not me. 

Really sucks being this messed up inside! 

Went to the DR today. That was fun. She *finally* agreed to put me on meds. She said she wasn't diagnosing me with depression (even though I AM DEPRESSED right now), but will diagnose me with PMDD. Fine. Whatever. I really don't care what the diagnosis is, just give me the pills! 

We talked again about the baby thing. I told her I cannot even begin to think about weather or not I want another baby in the condition I am in. I did say that I probably won't have another one. Not knowing what may happen with my MGUS and all, it's probably not the best of ideas. Again though, not a decision I am going to make right now. 

She also brought about the weight thing. Then pulled it back to the baby thing, you know, how I would be at a "high risk" pregnancy. Blah, blah. Yes, I know. She mentioned how she was 180 pounds when she was preggers and had gestational diabetes and preeclampsia. Yeah? "I was 350 pounds when I has my kids, both were fine and so was I".  Her jaw DROPPED! I think I shut her up right there.  Yes, I am aware of the elevated risks. Today is NOT the day to talk to me about it. 

She continued along the path of me not wanting to listen to her anymore so I stood up and put my coat on. I still can't believe I did that. But hey, I warned her that I am in a mooooood, thus the need for meds!  

Needless to say, I have my prescription now. She put me on Welbutrin. I don't like the sound of all the side effects but I will take my chances. The side effects of  my not being on anything right now are way worse for me and the people around me. 

Hopefully I will be back in a few days. I really miss myself! 

Hanging in

Hanging in there today.

My mood is just about the same as it was yesterday. Very disappointing as I am usually back to my old self by this time during my cycle.  I was thinking about getting on meds last night and had a breakdown thinking about having to start another cycle without having meds in my system. If I see the Doctor on Friday, the script won't arrive to me for at least another week....I can't focus on that right now though, it makes me panic to think about going through another cycle as a pyscho (I mean no offense, it's just how I feel).

I can't wait to feel normal again!  I don't like this person that I am right now. She's no fun. No fun at all.