Wednesday Weigh In

Ugh. Not again. Stayed the same.
I've spent the day reflecting and looking over my calories for the last two weeks. The things that have changed are:
1. I've been eating less
2. I've been exercising more (last week)
3. I've added more veggies

I'm pretty sure the veggies aren't the problem so I need to look at the eating and exercise. My thinking is that I'm not eating enough. This has happened to me in the past but is especially frustrating this go around because I'm working my a$$ off (sorry) and not reaping the benefits (scale wise) for all my work.   And yes, I realize I shouldn't live and die by the scale; I know that I am more than just a number on the scale. It's just especially frustrating this week seeing as my weekend was so emotional.  I needed a little boost but didn't get it.

Goals for the next week:
Consume no less than 1800 calories (I've been closer to 15-1600)
Continue my 3X at the gym and 2-3 days at home on the treadmill.
Hydrate, hydrate, hydrate.

Onwards and downwards.

Weekend Wrap Up

Ugh. This weekend can't be over quick enough. I know that may sound strange because most live for the weekends. It's just been an emotional roller coaster for me and I want to get off!

My eye has been twitching from stress since Thursday (see post here).  Things aren't horrible, just uncertain. I hate uncertainties. I hate walking around constantly worried about the other shoe to drop. Yes, I know I can only control what I can control but...let's just say I am allowed to have a moment or two right now.  And the thing I am worried about isn't life or death.

Friday I had a great workout at the gym. Rudy worked me to the core and then I did my 30 minutes on the arc trainer. I felt wonderful.

Friday afternoon my father took the kids ice fishing. He asked me to come along because it "will be fun. You'll actually enjoy it. And you can pull the sled." I couldn't say no because he was so happy about going. He loves ice fishing and couldn't wait to bring the boys. Hubs and I went along. Walking across the ice was a lot of work. I was worried about falling and hurting my back which is finally feeling better. Alas, I didn't fall and did have a bit of fun watching my kids' reactions to the ice, the fishing and being cold. According to MyFitnessPal, I burned nearly 250 calories just ice-standing. Score! ;-)

Yesterday was a trying family day. Parenting; 'nuff said. :)

Today has been another icky sort of day emotionally.  I really don't want to get into it right now because my feelings are really raw. Just suffice it to say that someone hurt my feelings. My heart shattered a bit and I'm now trying to find how to work through those feelings. It especially sucks because I've been on such a high about my weight loss progress and this just brought me right back to the ground.  No worries though, I haven't turned to food for comfort. Just to the Diet Coke which I was almost weaned off of.  Better that than the calories. I will get off of it. Today isn't the day.

My plan for the evening is to go to a meeting that I have to go to and when I return home I will walk for an hour on the treadmill while I catch up on The Biggest Loser. 

I hope your weekend was better than mine! Things could be worse. I realize that. I will feel better after a walk and a good night's sleep.

Avoided Disaster

I didn't plan on writing today. I haven't had much of anything going on and don't want to force myself to write something just for the sake of writing. Then today happened...

Stress. Stress and worry.
The cabinet crawl and refrigerator scrummage came right along with it.

That's where it all stopped though. I had a chat with myself about how food wasn't going to solve anything. Food will only make me feel worse. I have a ticker to change, I have spring clothes to buy in a (hopefully few) size(s) smaller. I've been working so hard. Nothing behind those doors would make me feel better.

I then plopped myself on the couch with my ipad and picked some mind numbing thing to watch on Netflix while the kids were trying to fall asleep. Once that video was done, I looked at the "stupid" treadmill and decided that I best get.to.it.  I asked hubs to pull it out from the wall while I went in to change. I walked for one hour. Just stuck with a nice comfy, relaxed pace of 2.5 with an incline of 2 and walked. Just before the hour was complete, I asked hubs to cut me up an orange. I was feeling a little weak and nothing tastes better after a workout than an orange.

That ticker will change next week. It.will.

Wednesday Weigh In

Stayed the same this week.
Would have loved to made a new ticker but that will have to wait another week.

It's not the end of the world. I know I'm a bit dehydrated. TOM has been around and I didn't work out at all over the weekend. Not making excuses, just stating what I know I could have done better with....water and getting in another workout.

Next week, I'm changing my ticker.

Sorry, that's all I have today.
I am wiped out. My little guy woke the house up at 5 today.
I've hit a wall.

Wednesday Weigh In

I'm happy to report another loss this week!

Down 2.4
Total since 1/5/13: 18.3

I'm just a week away from hitting my first big goal.

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Today is the start of Lent. Now, I am nowhere near a good Catholic but I do participate in giving up something for Lent and we don't eat meat on Friday's during this time.

What am I giving up?  For starters, the drive-thru. My drive-thru adventures are usually on the healthier side of things but I could always choose something even healthier (apple and water) and my wallet will be happier. I wanted to give up eating out all together but we'll be taking hubs' parents out to dinner on Saturday, so there.goes.that.

I'm also giving up junk food. We've had a lot in the house over the last week or so with all the snow and "need" for comfort food. I really pushed the limit with all that I took in and know that I would continue to push it if I don't call it "off limits". In this instance, I'm clearly OK with saying something is "off limits" because I'm giving it up for God. It's only 40 days. I can handle it.

Do you participate in Lent?  What are you giving up? And if not, do you have any other traditions that you participate in? I would love to hear about them.

Blizzard Pictures

WEll, we survived the blizzard just fine!
Thankfully we didn't lose power. Just had to stay inside for the better portion of 24 hours.

Thought I would share a few photos...

This is from 11:00 or so at night...my driveway is under all that and it was plowed about an hour and a half before this photo was taken. You'd never know it though.

This is a view of what it looked like when we opened the front door. Can't open the door like that! Approximately 2 feet of snow right there.

There is a car under all that snow!  We can only see one part of a tail light.

This is what the street looked like from my window at 9AM. The plow would come by but within fifteen minutes you'd never know it!

And just a pretty look at the poor bushes from my window. 

And this last photo is a shot from the ground. It shows the path that had to be shoveled out in order for the kids to get out into the back yard to sled. Crazy!

Thankful it's all over!  Can't believe how much snow there is out there...the kids certainly loved playing in it today.  Back to the grind tomorrow. 

A storm is brewin'

Alright, so the storm is more than brewin'...it's here!  And it's ca-razy! The snow is coming down so hard and fast, you can't see very far ahead of you. The roads are all closed until further notice; if you are out driving in this, you risk a $500 fine AND a year in prison!  Of course all the mom's were joking about how all you'll see are minivans out on the road daring for a night or two in jail!  HA!

The snow started around noon and has been getting heavier and heavier over the last few hours. The winds are what make a blizzid a blizzid (that's how we say blizzard) and so far the winds have been behaving themselves...up until I started writing...I can hear it whipping around pretty good out there. Just hoping we don't lose power so we can return the generator we picked up today because our old one wasn't working. Argh!  

So, if you are in the Northeast, stay safe and warm. If you are anywhere warm, don't brag. ;-) 

Wednesday Weigh In

Down 2.8 pounds this week brining my 2013 total to 16.3 pounds down.

I couldn't be happier with my progress.
I usually have to fight to lose a half a pound never mind being in the 2+ range! My work at the gym is finally paying off!

All this good news is making me feel bad for feeling frustrated right now.  I'm frustrated because my plantar faciitis is acting up in a big way.  My foot was actually throbbing last night. It felt like I was being stabbed in the heel. I tried to get a walk in on the treadmill while catching up on Loser but I could only make it to 15 minutes. So frustrating.  I'm seeing the doctor next week. I'm contemplating another cortisone shot. Ouch!

Speaking of The Biggest Loser, are you watching?
I was so happy when Pam left. She has the most annoying personality, she was driving me bonkers.  The other one that is wearing on my last nerve is Gina. If she cries one more time. Ugh. Overall though, I think this season is pretty good. The drama seems to be under control which may make for poor TV but I find it refreshing.

Theme Song

I've heard Alica Keys' "This Girl Is On Fire" an awful lot during the last week. When I'm in the gym, I feel like I'm on fire. Most days I feel like I could take on the world. While other days I want to curl up in a ball and hide under a rock. But, my focus right now is on those good great days in the gym! The days where I feel like I could do anything. The days when I feel strong and proud. The days when I could kick some, well, you know. :) Today is partially one of those days. "Partially?" you ask. Yes, partially. The reason is that I feel a bit broken today. My feet have been bothering me know for a few weeks. It's getting worse rather than better and now my back is starting to bother me. I have an old injury from when I was in high school and crush (nearly) my tail bone. From time to time I will tweak something and that will send my bottom into a tailspin (HA!). It's time to break out the donut (the kind you sit on) and pop a few ibuprofen for the next few days to get the throbbing to stop. On top of the tailbone pain, I have a bit of lower backache going on. I'm fairly certain is muscular in nature and should subside soon. Today's workout was with Rudy. He was kind enough to go a bit easy on me due to my backache. Don't get me wrong though, the workout was still tough. We did a lot of upper body stuff. My arms felt like they were going to fall off - I soon forgot about the achy back! There are so many people in far worse pain that I'm feeling so by no means am I whining. I'm just stating what my reality is for today. I will push through and I will come out on top. I am on fire.