I've started to realize that I am guilty of projecting my insecure feelings onto others -mostly strangers. It struck me today when I took my son to a "Mommy & Me" class. There was a woman there who I thought was scowling at me. Every time I caught her eye, I felt like she was looking at me with disgust. In fact, I was at the point where I almost said something to her. I had no idea what I would have said and quickly thought better of it. Certainly wasn't the time nor the place.
Then, there was a point in the class where she started speaking to me. I realized at that moment, she wasn't the (insert expletive here) that I thought she was. It turns out - per usual - that I was just projecting my negative feelings about myself onto this woman. Certainly wasn't fair to her nor to myself.
This isn't the first time I've realized what I was (am) doing. I'm sure it won't be the last, but I know that I am doing it and will work on being more watchful of myself and my negative thoughts.
In a way, it's silly to worry about what others may think about me. I know who I am. I know who loves me. I have great friends and a wonderful family. That's all that really matters in life, isn't it? The next time I catch myself projecting, I will just smile at the person and will think a happy thought. I'll let you know how it goes.
In the meantime, let's talk about this week's progress. Things are going pretty well. I've been really busy with appointments and the like. The little one is sick, thus sleeping has been very little. That always makes it difficult to "behave". All in all though, I've made some terrific food choices (a few that could have been better, but weren't terrible). I haven't been getting the exercise in that I need though. The good news though is that tomorrow is the first day this week where I have zero previous engagements. The little one and I will go on our 1 1/2 mile walk right after the big one gets on the bus.