Back in the game

It never ceases to amaze me what a workout will do for my mood! I just got home from the gym and I feel like a million bucks. I feel stronger, am standing a bit taller, and have a renewed sense of "I can do this". I feel like this every time I hit-the-gym. One would think I would remember that when I'm having a day that I don't feel like working out. It's actually those kinds of days that working out is probably the most important thing to do. At least for me it is. Always gives me the kick in the butt I need.

That all being said, let me talk a bit about how I've been feeling these last few days. I said on Friday that I was going to enjoy myself on Saturday. It was my son's birthday party then we hosted a little get-together afterward for the neighborhood people. That part was more of an adult thing, but the kids got to roast marshmallows and run around outside in the dark. That's always a good time for kids.

Anyway, I had my fun on Saturday. I actually enjoyed myself. Had a few drinks but didn't over do it on my calories. Yes, I went over but things could have been MUCH worse! Sunday was rough. It wasn't due to a hangover either. Shocker, really. No, more the insomnia thing. I mentioned last week that I had a night where I woke up at an un-Godly hour and couldn't get back to sleep. Well, sleep has been a bit rough since then. Would have thought a little alcohol would have fixed that. Nope. I tossed and turned all night long. I was so miserable and tired all day Sunday. I had to take a nap at one point. I would never have made it through the day without one. It took the edge off of the lousy feeling I was experiencing, but didn't put me back in the game.

I don't know about you, but when I am exhausted I tend to make poor decisions. I don't think things through well enough to do the right thing. Especially when it comes to nutrition. That pretty much goes out the window. So, I gave in and had whatever it was that I wanted. So now I'm in for two days of less-than-stellar eating. Great.

Then comes Monday. Guess what? I got a decent night's sleep on Sunday night. You'd think I'd be back on my game right? Not. So. Much. Although it wasn't horrible, things should have been a lot better. If ever there was a day I needed the gym, it was yesterday. I stubbornly didn't go though and was left with poor feelings about my decisions at bed-time last night.

It was at that moment I decided enough-is-enough. I need to get back into the game. I have so much work to do and am so close to that first big-goal I have set for myself. Next week is going to be rough as I will be on vacation. Need to make this week count! So, eating has been right on target today. And the gym was perfect. I am back in the game!

Week 20 Weigh In

Stayed the same.
Total is still 37 pounds. :-)

I'm OK with this. I've had a lot of sodium this week and didn't hit-the-gym as much as I would have liked. It's all good though. I'm feeling strong and am in this.

Keeping things really short right now. I am running on fumes. Wednesday night I hardly slept - got maybe 3.5 hours of sleep. I woke up in the middle of the night and just couldn't get back to sleep. Last night wasn't all that much better. I went to bed a little early but had serious issues with staying asleep. As of right now I am burnt out. Trying to hold on til 9:00 though because I certainly don't want to be up in the middle of the night again.

Tomorrow is my son's birthday party. Been working on those preparations all day. I spoke with my trainer about tomorrow too. I've decided to give myself a day of fun. That is, I'm going to have a few beverages after the party. We're having some friend's back over tomorrow night for some s'mores and campfire fun. I've been good all summer and haven't joined in with the drinking festivities. After the week I've had, I'm going to let myself slip a bit. No worries...it's part of my plan.

Later this weekend I will update you on my feet and let you know what's on the agenda for next week. Good things are about to happen. Until then I need to get a good night's rest so I can enjoy my son's day tomorrow!

Have a great weekend!

Note to self

My thoughts and I had a long chat at the gym last night. We talked about all this stalling I'm doing this week. Call it TOM, call it afraid of breaking though, call it excuses...whatever it is here I am trying to figure out how to get my head back in the game. And that's just what it is, a head game. I truly believe a lot of this process is about getting the mind into it.

While I was on the elliptical, I found myself working harder and harder at every turn talking things up about getting things going. I am just a short way from hitting a major milestone for myself. Actually, I am just a short way away from hitting two major milestones. This is the big time. I can't let myself get lax here right now.

So, I worked really hard last night in the gym. I got my cortisone shot this morning in my left foot. Plantar Fasciitis will be at bay at least for a few months on the left side. I found out I can have another shot on the right. I'm holding off on that until I start physical therapy next week. When my feet feel better, there will be nothing that can hold me back. I plan on being as close to my wedding weight on my 10th anniversary in October. That is almost 50 pounds. I realize I won't be 50 pounds lighter in 3 months, but if I can get a little more than half-way there I will be more than happy!

The short term plan is to get my feet in order. Forhttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif this week I did a personal training on Monday, did my own workout last night and will be heading in for a bike ride tonight. Tomorrow is a rest day followed by personal training on Friday. There is also a 5K in Boston next week with Lose It!...I'm hoping my feet will be better and I can participate. I think the short term plan looks good.

Rough go

Possible TMI here...just be aware. :D

This week is proving to be a rough one for me. I am getting closer and closer to my first big goal. One would think it would be a "balls-to-the-wall" sort of week. I thought it would for sure. I've been so excited to hit this milestone. I am just about there and here I am fighting it. Almost like somewhere deep inside I am afraid to pass through?

I'm not sure what's worse for me this week. The thought of dealing with my feet (getting a cortisone shot tomorrow - hopefully) or being that it's "that time of the month". It seems since I've started this process, my monthly "friend" has been very "unfriendly" to me. I've been more uncomfortable and hungry. I stepped on the scale this morning because I've been feeling so bloated and gross. Found I was up about 4 pounds. I don't typically gain during TOM, but looks like I may this go-around. No worries. I'm not beating myself up about it at all, just feeling frustrated with myself for not being able to snap out of it and push through this milestone that is starting me right in the face!

And back to my feet issue. The Plantar Fasciitis is actually doing better since I called the Doctor to set up the appointment for the cortisone shot. Murphy's Law, right? I also have my first physical therapy appointment next week. I feel like my feet are holding me back more than anything. I would be more than thrilled to walk on a daily basis but don't because of the discomfort and pain I have in my feet. I can't wait to get going with the PT and hopefully get my feet to a place where I can handle daily walks.

It's a new day

Yesterday I logged my weekly weigh in. I said I wasn't too disappointed with not losing. And truth be told, I wasn't. I'm used to the pattern and know I just have to roll with it.

My behavior yesterday told a completely different story though. For some reason I just kept snacking and snacking and snacking. I was so far over my calories yesterday, not sure how I could ever dig out. It's OK. I'm not beating myself up or even contemplating continuing down that path. I hated the way I felt and am not going back.

Today is a new day. Not looking back at yesterday but looking to what I can do today and in this moment. The plan is to hit the farmer's market today so we'll have tons of fresh fruits and veggies on hand. I'm also staying away from the kitchen this morning. My son had a sleepover last night. The kids want pancakes. If I start my day with that it'll just turn bad for the rest of the day. I know that. It's pretty much what happened yesterday.

Week 19 Weigh In

Staying the same this week.
I'm not surprised nor am I going to complain about it.

First, it's my pattern. I have a great week then a nothing (or close to it). Plus I've been lacking in the gym this week. My trainer is on vacation and it's been a busy week for me. I've done all of 2 workouts this week. So not like me. Then the other night we headed over to Gillette Stadium for the Patriots' Season Ticket Holder and Waiting List Member night. Needless to say I splurged on a burger. Not beating myself up about it. I stopped there. Gotta live.

The next weeks are going to be slow in the gym too. I've made the appointment for the cortisone shot. And of course my foot is feeling better! Murphy's Law, right?

Beach going and FMM

Coming off a fun weekend and now back at it. I was a little over on calories for both days but my workout on Saturday should cover the overage. Not expecting much this week by way of weight loss as my trainer is on vacation and my feet are in a bad way! I will be calling the podiatrist this morning about getting into physical therapy and possibly a cortisone shot. :( Take care of your feet! You don't want plantar faciitous!

Stressing out a little this morning too. Taking the kids to the beach. Not the real beach though...just to a pond/park around here. I hear it's a blast, but the thought of me sitting on a beach of any kind makes me a little unnerved. I hate the heat. Hate sitting in the sun. And I worry too much about the kids and the water. So, I am putting on a happy face and am going to try my best to have a great time. Will let you know how it goes.

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FMM: Girly Questions

1. Do you like to shop? Nope. Well, that's not entirely true. I am a huge fan of Target and will shop there all day long. I enjoy shopping for kid's clothes and scrapbooking supplies. Other than that I avoid shopping like the plague. That may change as I get smaller.

2. How often do you wear makeup? Only on special occasions. I have allergic reactions to it. I've tried all the specialty kinds and still will have breakouts and my eyes get all gross. I'll save you the deets on that.

3. How do you feel about nail polish? I like the look of nail polish. I wish I wore it or could wear it but I don't. I'm not gentle with my hands and will have chips within an hour of putting on a fresh polish. Nothing irritates me more than chipped polish.

4. Do you consider yourself to be a feminist? Not at all.

5. What’s your biggest challenge as a woman? Honestly, I can't think of any. I don't think in terms of "women's issues" and "men's issues" I am more of a "human issue" type of thinker.

6. Do you wear skirts and dresses? Someday I will again. I love wearing dresses but haven't worn one in about 8 years. :(

7. How do you feel about high heels? I hate them. Always have. I am so unsteady in sneakers never mind high heels!

8. Do you subscribe to magazines? If so, which ones? Yes. Creating Keepsakes and Scrapbooks Etc.

9. Do you shave your legs/wax/ use depilatory creams or go au naturale? I shave. In the winter I am more au naturale...Not that I like it that way but because my skin is so sensitive and dry it's hard to get a good shave in all the time. :(

10. What do you like most about being a woman? I love being a mom! There is no better job for me!