You know when you wake up and have that haze in your eyes that makes it difficult to see at first. You know the one I'm talking about right? Or even the haze you get when you are way over tired at night and need to get to sleep but you struggle to stay awake because you have other things to do. No matter how hard you rub your eyes, the haze just won't go away and you can't seem to focus on much of anything.
Yea. That's how I'm feeling this week. I have enough focus to keep my calories down and get my (minimal) workouts in but other than that, I'm shot. Everything I do is difficult. I can't seem to focus on even the simplest of tasks. I swear I have ADD this week. I can't even complete a thought.
It's my own fault. I'm pretty sure my vitamin D is low. This is how I get when I'm deficient. I meant to take the pill yesterday but got distracted by some shiny object of some sort and never got around to it. I made my husband remind me to take one tonight...and I did just that. I took one (a mega-dose). I should be a little better in the morning and by Saturday, with any luck, the fog will be lifted.
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As far as the food stuff goes, today wasn't too bad. It's my mother's birthday so the family took her out to The Texas Roadhouse. VERY DANGEROUS PLACE! OMG! The rolls are todiefor. The Ribs? YUM! Ugh. You'll be happy to know I had noneofit.
I planned on ordering a grilled chicken salad without the croutons. That plan did end up going out the window because by the time we got there (traffic) and were seated (there was a wait), I was famished. I had 4 peanuts while waiting but didn't want to mindlessly eat more than that. I passed on the bread (I deserve a medal for that!) but was tested when they ordered an appetizer (bloomin' onion). I was hungry. Getting grouchy kind of hungry. I opted to order a plain (yes, I said plain) baked potato. Luckily that came out with the appetizer so I could munch on something a bit more healthy. Because those potatoes are so huge and probably soaked in oil before being baked, I decided to just have a side salad with just a touch of dressing. My trick for dressing is to just dip your fork in ever so slightly. It saves a ton of calories when you can't measure.
All in all, I'd say that was a success!!!
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Wednesday Weigh-in
Down 2.2 this week! Bringing the total just over 13 pounds for the month of January.
I'm loving the consistency and am hoping I can keep up the pace.
I called myself out on something last week; my meal choices. This week wasn't as bad with the grab-and-go type of food choices but there is still a lot of room for improvement. Damon called me out on that as well today. We talked a lot about the sodium content in those kinds of foods and he really feels that I could be holding onto a lot of water with the sodium I'm taking in. So, for this week I'm really going to make an effort to have more wholesome sorts of meals.
My fridge is freshly packed with tons of fruits and veggies. I will make an effort to incorporate more of that kind of food into my diet this week.
That's all I have for right now.
I'm feeling unfocused (in life) right now. I think it's just a case of low vitamin D. Off to take my mega dose of that right now and hopefully I'll feel more clear in the morning.
I'm loving the consistency and am hoping I can keep up the pace.
I called myself out on something last week; my meal choices. This week wasn't as bad with the grab-and-go type of food choices but there is still a lot of room for improvement. Damon called me out on that as well today. We talked a lot about the sodium content in those kinds of foods and he really feels that I could be holding onto a lot of water with the sodium I'm taking in. So, for this week I'm really going to make an effort to have more wholesome sorts of meals.
My fridge is freshly packed with tons of fruits and veggies. I will make an effort to incorporate more of that kind of food into my diet this week.
That's all I have for right now.
I'm feeling unfocused (in life) right now. I think it's just a case of low vitamin D. Off to take my mega dose of that right now and hopefully I'll feel more clear in the morning.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Weekend Check-in
I love(d) this weekend!
Yesterday I got to hang out with a few of my scrapbooking girl friends. We all met at my house and had some fun catching up while getting our "scrap on".
Today was a low-key kind of day. I took my eldest to church and then we caught up on some homework and hung out. My little guy seems to be coming down with something so that should make for an interesting start to the week. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
When I get together with the girls (or anyone, for that matter), the stress about what-to-eat gets to me. I thought long and hard about how I was going to approach the day. The plan was to get up in the morning and hop on the treadmill. That plan was quickly derailed by the millions of other things the kids had planned for me. Time quickly got away from me so I had to come up with another plan for keeping my calories in check.
We took the kids out to lunch before my girlfriends arrived. My elsdest had his first reconciliation (confession) yesterday so we thought we'd let him choose something special for lunch. His favorite treat is ribs. We headed off to Chili's and I was able to keep the calories reasonable by ordering a cup of Chicken Enchilada Soup and a side salad. They also ordered a skillet queso (one of my all time favorites!). I was able to stick to a small handful of chips and went easy with the queso. Could have been very bad but according to MyFitnessPal I was around 650. I know it's a lot for one meal but it could have been a lot worse.
For dinner, everyone wanted to order out. Burgers were on the mind. I decided to have a lean cuisine and took a few fries and a small bite of my husband's burger. Again, I could have said "oh screw it" and had the whole burger and a crapton of fries, but I didn't. I had just a taste of both and that was enough to satisfy me.
I ended up over calories by nearly 150 yesterday and it seems I'll be that way again today. I'm not sure if I'm fighting something too or what but I'm feeling very hungry today. That typically happens when I'm over-tired so that's probably (I hope) all that it is.
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Correction to the above statement. I was nearly up by 150 calories but as I typed that I realized I could do something abou it and hopped on the treadmill. I burned nearly 400 calories and feel great.
Yesterday I got to hang out with a few of my scrapbooking girl friends. We all met at my house and had some fun catching up while getting our "scrap on".
Today was a low-key kind of day. I took my eldest to church and then we caught up on some homework and hung out. My little guy seems to be coming down with something so that should make for an interesting start to the week. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
When I get together with the girls (or anyone, for that matter), the stress about what-to-eat gets to me. I thought long and hard about how I was going to approach the day. The plan was to get up in the morning and hop on the treadmill. That plan was quickly derailed by the millions of other things the kids had planned for me. Time quickly got away from me so I had to come up with another plan for keeping my calories in check.
We took the kids out to lunch before my girlfriends arrived. My elsdest had his first reconciliation (confession) yesterday so we thought we'd let him choose something special for lunch. His favorite treat is ribs. We headed off to Chili's and I was able to keep the calories reasonable by ordering a cup of Chicken Enchilada Soup and a side salad. They also ordered a skillet queso (one of my all time favorites!). I was able to stick to a small handful of chips and went easy with the queso. Could have been very bad but according to MyFitnessPal I was around 650. I know it's a lot for one meal but it could have been a lot worse.
For dinner, everyone wanted to order out. Burgers were on the mind. I decided to have a lean cuisine and took a few fries and a small bite of my husband's burger. Again, I could have said "oh screw it" and had the whole burger and a crapton of fries, but I didn't. I had just a taste of both and that was enough to satisfy me.
I ended up over calories by nearly 150 yesterday and it seems I'll be that way again today. I'm not sure if I'm fighting something too or what but I'm feeling very hungry today. That typically happens when I'm over-tired so that's probably (I hope) all that it is.
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Correction to the above statement. I was nearly up by 150 calories but as I typed that I realized I could do something abou it and hopped on the treadmill. I burned nearly 400 calories and feel great.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Weekly Weigh In
Down 1.4 this week for a total of 11.3 since January 3rd. Not too shabby!
This week was rough being a hormonal week so I will certainly take that 1.4 to the bank! I think I have my water intake down and I certainly have the workouts in.
Now for this week I'm going to focus on making one meal a day better than it has been in the past. What does that mean? Well, I've been picking and making poor food choices for every other meal besides breakfast. I have a hard time with eating cold (salads and fruit) food in the winter. I also HATE cooking so I tend to reach for the prepackaged meals. This week I'm going to work on changing one meal a day into something more wholesome.
Breakfast for me is typically a Greek Yogurt (would like to make some homemade sometime) with oatmeal. Lunch can be anything from a trip through Dunkin Donuts drive thru to a Lean Cuisine. Dinner is just a mess.
For this next week I'm going to work on dinner choices. Why dinner? Because my whole family will benefit from my being better about getting into the kitchen. Ugh! I really HATE cooking! It's especially difficult on the nights I work (Monday and Tuesday...and today I was called in). Monday my husband will come home to take my son to swim practice so he handles dinner the best he can and then Tuesday I will typically have some chicken nuggets or some other kid friendly food on hand for my father to make for them.
So, I am reaching out to you...what do you like to have for dinner? Remember, I hate most cooked veggies. ;-)
This week was rough being a hormonal week so I will certainly take that 1.4 to the bank! I think I have my water intake down and I certainly have the workouts in.
Now for this week I'm going to focus on making one meal a day better than it has been in the past. What does that mean? Well, I've been picking and making poor food choices for every other meal besides breakfast. I have a hard time with eating cold (salads and fruit) food in the winter. I also HATE cooking so I tend to reach for the prepackaged meals. This week I'm going to work on changing one meal a day into something more wholesome.
Breakfast for me is typically a Greek Yogurt (would like to make some homemade sometime) with oatmeal. Lunch can be anything from a trip through Dunkin Donuts drive thru to a Lean Cuisine. Dinner is just a mess.
For this next week I'm going to work on dinner choices. Why dinner? Because my whole family will benefit from my being better about getting into the kitchen. Ugh! I really HATE cooking! It's especially difficult on the nights I work (Monday and Tuesday...and today I was called in). Monday my husband will come home to take my son to swim practice so he handles dinner the best he can and then Tuesday I will typically have some chicken nuggets or some other kid friendly food on hand for my father to make for them.
So, I am reaching out to you...what do you like to have for dinner? Remember, I hate most cooked veggies. ;-)
Monday, January 21, 2013
A Quick Check-in
Sorry I've been MIA this last week.
Nothing is really going on. I just haven't had the time I've wanted or needed to sit down and write.
I'll give you a quick recap of last week and let's hope I have more time and energy to get back into the swing of things here for this week.
Weight loss last week was nearly 5 pounds again! I'm just touching the 10 pound mark which means I'm back to where I was before Christmas and then some. Yeah! This week's weigh in will be a bit more tricky with TOM around, but we'll see what happens on Wednesday.
Workouts last week were killer! I had to switch my days at the gym so I ended up working out back-to-back on Thursday and Friday. Thursday's workout was with Damon...he really kicked things up a notch! And then Friday was of course Rudy. I think I died that day. It was a good death though. I'm pretty sure I'm still sweating from that particular workout.
I've also been able to complete my 30 minutes cardio after my training time. AND I've been on the treadmill at home twice during the week! The awesome thing I noticed about that is that I'm steadily walking at a 3.0 where I used to only walk at that pace for 5 minutes at a time, I'm now up to 25 without too much trouble. I'll continue at the 3.0 this week just to get really comfortable there and I'll pop it up a bit during the next week or so.
Alright, sorry about the rambling. I hope I'm making sense. I'm trying to fit a little catch up in between house stuff and kids stuff before heading to work.
Nothing is really going on. I just haven't had the time I've wanted or needed to sit down and write.
I'll give you a quick recap of last week and let's hope I have more time and energy to get back into the swing of things here for this week.
Weight loss last week was nearly 5 pounds again! I'm just touching the 10 pound mark which means I'm back to where I was before Christmas and then some. Yeah! This week's weigh in will be a bit more tricky with TOM around, but we'll see what happens on Wednesday.
Workouts last week were killer! I had to switch my days at the gym so I ended up working out back-to-back on Thursday and Friday. Thursday's workout was with Damon...he really kicked things up a notch! And then Friday was of course Rudy. I think I died that day. It was a good death though. I'm pretty sure I'm still sweating from that particular workout.
I've also been able to complete my 30 minutes cardio after my training time. AND I've been on the treadmill at home twice during the week! The awesome thing I noticed about that is that I'm steadily walking at a 3.0 where I used to only walk at that pace for 5 minutes at a time, I'm now up to 25 without too much trouble. I'll continue at the 3.0 this week just to get really comfortable there and I'll pop it up a bit during the next week or so.
Alright, sorry about the rambling. I hope I'm making sense. I'm trying to fit a little catch up in between house stuff and kids stuff before heading to work.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Weekend Wrapup and FMM
I'm feeling a bit better. The antidepressant kicked in and I'm flying high again. I think it's actually a bit much so I'll take it every other day until the start of my cycle and then I'll be done with it until next time. I know, TMI, so sorry.
The weekend was a bit crazier than I first expected. Saturday was my son's last (kinda) swim meet for the season. Hubs took him and I stayed home with the tiny man. I caught up on some housework while he played.
Sunday got away from me. My plan was to sit and craft for most of the day but that never happened. It was all good though because The Pats had a good game and we're moving on to the AFC Championships. This week's game is going to be ROUGH! Can't wait!
Food and exercise have been on track. My calories are on target but my food choices could use some cleaning up a bit. I'm having a hard time with that portion with the PMDD. That will subside soon and I can be on to making better choices. I'm just happy that my calories are dead on.
Enough of all the boring stuff...time to play along with Kenlie's FMM:Intersting Things
1. What was the last movie you saw in a theater? Anyone who knows me knows that I actually hate going to the movies. I have panic attacks. I did however go twice in the last year...I saw that one there with Channing Tatum with the girls. What a fun night that was!!! (Sorry, my brain isn't working, I'm sure you'll tell me the name of it).
2. How old were you when you had your first kiss? 13. Summer camp. That was the best summer ever!
3. Share the coolest thing you've done so far in 2013. Things are pretty mundane around here right now - just how I like it.
4. What kind of cell phone do you use? Do you love it? I have the iPhone 4S. I do love it yet hate it sometimes. I would like to disconnect from the world from time to time.
5. How many times do you plan to workout this week? Well, I have 3 sessions on the books with the trainers and then I would like to get in 2 other cardio days. I've already done 1 session and 1 cardio. Go me!
6. What is your favorite movies from the 80's? That's a toss up between The Breakfast Club and Stand by Me
7. If you could choose one character from a TV show or a movie to fall head over heels for you, who would it be? Don Flack. OMG! I love his eyes and his sense of humor. Hubs has accepted it. :)
The weekend was a bit crazier than I first expected. Saturday was my son's last (kinda) swim meet for the season. Hubs took him and I stayed home with the tiny man. I caught up on some housework while he played.
Sunday got away from me. My plan was to sit and craft for most of the day but that never happened. It was all good though because The Pats had a good game and we're moving on to the AFC Championships. This week's game is going to be ROUGH! Can't wait!
Food and exercise have been on track. My calories are on target but my food choices could use some cleaning up a bit. I'm having a hard time with that portion with the PMDD. That will subside soon and I can be on to making better choices. I'm just happy that my calories are dead on.
Enough of all the boring stuff...time to play along with Kenlie's FMM:Intersting Things
1. What was the last movie you saw in a theater? Anyone who knows me knows that I actually hate going to the movies. I have panic attacks. I did however go twice in the last year...I saw that one there with Channing Tatum with the girls. What a fun night that was!!! (Sorry, my brain isn't working, I'm sure you'll tell me the name of it).
2. How old were you when you had your first kiss? 13. Summer camp. That was the best summer ever!
3. Share the coolest thing you've done so far in 2013. Things are pretty mundane around here right now - just how I like it.
4. What kind of cell phone do you use? Do you love it? I have the iPhone 4S. I do love it yet hate it sometimes. I would like to disconnect from the world from time to time.
5. How many times do you plan to workout this week? Well, I have 3 sessions on the books with the trainers and then I would like to get in 2 other cardio days. I've already done 1 session and 1 cardio. Go me!
6. What is your favorite movies from the 80's? That's a toss up between The Breakfast Club and Stand by Me
7. If you could choose one character from a TV show or a movie to fall head over heels for you, who would it be? Don Flack. OMG! I love his eyes and his sense of humor. Hubs has accepted it. :)
8. If you could eat one food everyday for the rest of your life without gaining any weight as a result, what would you choose? Chocolate! Chocolate anything.
9. What is your favorite flower? Lilacs!
10. Did you watch the Golden Globes last night? Don't shoot me but no. I'm not big into the following Hollywood stuff.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
The Joys Of PMDD
TMI alert!!!
Yes! My title today is sarcastic! PMDD sucks! I hate it! I hate what it does to my mood. I hate that it makes me and everyone around me downright miserable.
The "good" news though is that I recognize it when it's coming on and can send out a warning signal to everyone around me to WATCH OUT! The most difficult symptom to handle would be the anger. There is little to no wiggle room with me when I'm having a bad month. The littlest thing will set me off. Seriously, things that wouldn't make any sane person even blink will set me off. I have to keep constant control of my thoughts and be very mindful that I'm going crazy for a few days.
It's not horrible every month. In fact, the last 2-3 months haven't been as bad as "usual" but this month is an entirely different story. Everything is difficult. It's difficult to sit here and think of something to say. And even if I have something brilliant to tell you, it's much too much work to type it. Chores? Yeah. That is over-the-top overwhelming. The simplest of tasks is almost like you've told me I have to build a rocket in a day. Seriously! Loading the dishwasher is that "painful". Ugh.
Again, the good news is that I recognize it and am able to at least warn everyone. That's a blessing. The other piece of good news (I mentioned the other day) is that my doctor gave me an antidepressant to use during this time. She told me she has a few patients who use 1/2 a dose during the rough days and it's enough to get them through. This is something I have been asking her if I could do...she was never up for the idea but for some reason she agreed this time. YEAH! So, I took my first dose yesterday. It does take a few days (DRs will tell you up to a month, but I usually notice it right away) to get into the system. I'm feeling a little better today over how I was feeling yesterday and hopefully by tomorrow I'll be feeling more normal. And the great thing is that once TOM arrives in a few days, I can come off! Here's hoping it works!
Alright, enough about that!
I am really excited about something! I ordered some (much needed) jeans last week. I ordered two pair: one for now and one a size smaller. Guess what I'm doing? I'm sending the one for now back! The size smaller FITS! They are a little tight in the waist, but the button! YEAH! I'm also sending a top back because it's probably two sizes too big! Yeah me!
So, it's not all bad around here. I promise my mood will improve in a few days. I'm sure you've noticed my moodiness. Sorry 'bout that. I'm working on it.
Have a great weekend!
Yes! My title today is sarcastic! PMDD sucks! I hate it! I hate what it does to my mood. I hate that it makes me and everyone around me downright miserable.
The "good" news though is that I recognize it when it's coming on and can send out a warning signal to everyone around me to WATCH OUT! The most difficult symptom to handle would be the anger. There is little to no wiggle room with me when I'm having a bad month. The littlest thing will set me off. Seriously, things that wouldn't make any sane person even blink will set me off. I have to keep constant control of my thoughts and be very mindful that I'm going crazy for a few days.
It's not horrible every month. In fact, the last 2-3 months haven't been as bad as "usual" but this month is an entirely different story. Everything is difficult. It's difficult to sit here and think of something to say. And even if I have something brilliant to tell you, it's much too much work to type it. Chores? Yeah. That is over-the-top overwhelming. The simplest of tasks is almost like you've told me I have to build a rocket in a day. Seriously! Loading the dishwasher is that "painful". Ugh.
Again, the good news is that I recognize it and am able to at least warn everyone. That's a blessing. The other piece of good news (I mentioned the other day) is that my doctor gave me an antidepressant to use during this time. She told me she has a few patients who use 1/2 a dose during the rough days and it's enough to get them through. This is something I have been asking her if I could do...she was never up for the idea but for some reason she agreed this time. YEAH! So, I took my first dose yesterday. It does take a few days (DRs will tell you up to a month, but I usually notice it right away) to get into the system. I'm feeling a little better today over how I was feeling yesterday and hopefully by tomorrow I'll be feeling more normal. And the great thing is that once TOM arrives in a few days, I can come off! Here's hoping it works!
Alright, enough about that!
I am really excited about something! I ordered some (much needed) jeans last week. I ordered two pair: one for now and one a size smaller. Guess what I'm doing? I'm sending the one for now back! The size smaller FITS! They are a little tight in the waist, but the button! YEAH! I'm also sending a top back because it's probably two sizes too big! Yeah me!
So, it's not all bad around here. I promise my mood will improve in a few days. I'm sure you've noticed my moodiness. Sorry 'bout that. I'm working on it.
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
They can't all be great
What a bummer.
I had such high hopes yesterday.
I felt like a million bucks.
Got a great workout in and overall had a great feeling about everything.
Today?
Notsomuch.
It's not that it's a terrible day, I'm just not in the right frame of mind. I think my PMDD is making an appearance. The good news? My doctor agreed to let me try some meds for during this time. I'll start taking it tonight and we'll see what happens over the next few days.
The other good news for the day is that I hopped on the treadmill. My foot was in a bad way though so I walked at a slower pace (2.5, incline of 2) for about 25 minutes or so. I needed to hop on today because I knew I was going to go over my calories...I don't typically eat my burned calories but today I'm afraid I "need to".
That's it for today. Hopefully there will be smiles for tomorrow.
I had such high hopes yesterday.
I felt like a million bucks.
Got a great workout in and overall had a great feeling about everything.
Today?
Notsomuch.
It's not that it's a terrible day, I'm just not in the right frame of mind. I think my PMDD is making an appearance. The good news? My doctor agreed to let me try some meds for during this time. I'll start taking it tonight and we'll see what happens over the next few days.
The other good news for the day is that I hopped on the treadmill. My foot was in a bad way though so I walked at a slower pace (2.5, incline of 2) for about 25 minutes or so. I needed to hop on today because I knew I was going to go over my calories...I don't typically eat my burned calories but today I'm afraid I "need to".
That's it for today. Hopefully there will be smiles for tomorrow.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Results: Week One
Not a bad week. I'm down 4.6 pounds according to the gym scale (I weighed in later in the day than I normally would). Home scale was 5.2. So, I just have to be consistent as to which scale I'm using so I will use the home scale...not because it was a bit better but because I will actually remember the number. :)
How I did in terms of the goals:
How I did in terms of the goals:
Weekly Goal: Get back onto the bike. I haven't been able to do any cardio with my coughing so much. My thinking is that by Friday I should be well enough to do more cardio. So the bike didn't happen. However, I have been on the arc. I haven't been able to get on the bike because I've been waiting for my sneakers to come in (they did arrive yesterday but are too small). The shoes I've been wearing to the workouts are just too big for the straps on the bike. I'm considering this as a win anyway because the arc is a better workout.
Goals for January:
1. Log most of my meals. I would love to say all my meals but you know I'm bound to miss one. If I log 5-6 days out of the week, I think I'll be fine. And I did make it 6 days! Hope to keep that momentum up for the remainder of the month.
2. By next week I'd like to use the time that I have in the gym. Damon was nice enough to set up the deal that I could use the cardio equipment for 30 mins one my gym days. So long as my lungs cooperate, I'd like to use that time wisely! As stated above - this has been a win! Today I could only do 15 minutes because of my feet but I've gotten as much as 20+ this week. Shooting for 20-25 next week.
3. Walk on the treadmill on at least one"off day". I work with Damon 3 days a week, the least I could do is another of cardio. I'll work my way up to 2-3 cardio days. This is a "fail". I haven't done anything on my "off" days. I will make more of an effort this week.
4. This one is rough. I would like to get off the diet soda. I know all the bad things it does to your health....I'm just an addict. Hello. My name is Jenn and I'm addicted to diet soda. This one is still rough!
5. Juice 3 days a week. I'm not sure if I mentioned this before or not (sorry, pressed for time or I'd look) but I bought a juicer a few months back. We use it a lot on the weekends to make some sort of fruit juice to go with breakfast. I would like to take it a step further and really get into veggie juicing. No juice yet either. I have supplies on hand so I will make more of an effort to just do it.
All in all I think the first week went really well. And for the start of week 2? Well, I got to work out with Bob. As much I say he's "mean" and I cringe and cry when I know I have to work with him, I know I'm going to get a great workout. I know I'm going to leave the gym feeling exhausted but it will be worth it. And truth be told, Bob is certainly not mean. He's probably one of the kindest people I've ever met...he has this gentle soul thing going on. As much as you are crying on the inside and begging for mercy, you just can't because you want to do it for him because he's so nice. Does that make any sense?
So, now that it's just after dinner time, I am ready to curl up on the couch and watch some tube. I feel I've earned it today.
Roll week two.
All in all I think the first week went really well. And for the start of week 2? Well, I got to work out with Bob. As much I say he's "mean" and I cringe and cry when I know I have to work with him, I know I'm going to get a great workout. I know I'm going to leave the gym feeling exhausted but it will be worth it. And truth be told, Bob is certainly not mean. He's probably one of the kindest people I've ever met...he has this gentle soul thing going on. As much as you are crying on the inside and begging for mercy, you just can't because you want to do it for him because he's so nice. Does that make any sense?
So, now that it's just after dinner time, I am ready to curl up on the couch and watch some tube. I feel I've earned it today.
Roll week two.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Loser
Are you watching The Biggest Loser this season?
I watched both episodes last night. I felt guilty because I was planning on watching from the treadmill for the first half but I never got on the darn thing. I will hop on tonight though! For sure!
Anyway, I couldn't believe how brutal Jillian was! Oye! I'm not too happy that the one woman (Nikki) walked off. Clearly she had issues, just sucks for the hundreds of thousands that would love to have been in her place (like me!). I felt so sad and cried like a baby when TC had to go too. He wanted to be there so bad. It was also touching to see Ali's reaction - you could tell she was feeling terrible that he had to go.
What about the kids? Oh, that Bingo is just too cute for words! He reminds me a bit of my son. Sunny is incredibly bright, I feel like she's going to do really well and Lyndsey just makes me cry. She reminds me of me when I was a kid. I'm so happy for these guys, they are getting positive help which should hopefully lead them into long-term healthy lifestyles.
Overall it seems to be a good group of people and I can't wait for more! What are your thoughts?
And speaking of The Biggest Loser, I'm nearing the end of week one of the contest at the gym. Damon has really put things into high gear with me this week! I have a workout hangover today! My arms and legs are in a world of hurt and I can't wait to get in the gym tomorrow!
I watched both episodes last night. I felt guilty because I was planning on watching from the treadmill for the first half but I never got on the darn thing. I will hop on tonight though! For sure!
Anyway, I couldn't believe how brutal Jillian was! Oye! I'm not too happy that the one woman (Nikki) walked off. Clearly she had issues, just sucks for the hundreds of thousands that would love to have been in her place (like me!). I felt so sad and cried like a baby when TC had to go too. He wanted to be there so bad. It was also touching to see Ali's reaction - you could tell she was feeling terrible that he had to go.
What about the kids? Oh, that Bingo is just too cute for words! He reminds me a bit of my son. Sunny is incredibly bright, I feel like she's going to do really well and Lyndsey just makes me cry. She reminds me of me when I was a kid. I'm so happy for these guys, they are getting positive help which should hopefully lead them into long-term healthy lifestyles.
Overall it seems to be a good group of people and I can't wait for more! What are your thoughts?
And speaking of The Biggest Loser, I'm nearing the end of week one of the contest at the gym. Damon has really put things into high gear with me this week! I have a workout hangover today! My arms and legs are in a world of hurt and I can't wait to get in the gym tomorrow!
Monday, January 7, 2013
Weekend Wrap up and FMM
Ugh. Back to the weekly grind! Not that I really mind so much it's just that it's the first long week back since the holiday break. You know what I mean, right? To top off my Monday blues, I have have to food shop today! I hate that job with a passion! Hubs and I were supposed to do it yesterday but other things popped up (like a broken dryer- again!). So, after my workout I'll be at the grocery store.
Saturday went well as far as food goes. I had a rough patch in the sense that I was overly hungry because my son had his swim meet (5 hours on the pool deck) and apparently I didn't pack enough snacks for all of us. I made some poor choices but stayed within calories. Yea! Sunday was another story. I picked. A lot. And I didn't log yesterday. Shame on me. I'm not going to beat myself up about it, I still have 4 good (solid) days under my belt and 2 more to go before my week is up.
Today's goal is to drink water! I'm very dehydrated and am feeling it. I don't think I even had a lick of water yesterday. Saturday I did drink some but not enough for the amount of time I spent on the pool deck.
Alright, it's almost time to head off to the gym so I'll get right to FMM:Simple Questions
Saturday went well as far as food goes. I had a rough patch in the sense that I was overly hungry because my son had his swim meet (5 hours on the pool deck) and apparently I didn't pack enough snacks for all of us. I made some poor choices but stayed within calories. Yea! Sunday was another story. I picked. A lot. And I didn't log yesterday. Shame on me. I'm not going to beat myself up about it, I still have 4 good (solid) days under my belt and 2 more to go before my week is up.
Today's goal is to drink water! I'm very dehydrated and am feeling it. I don't think I even had a lick of water yesterday. Saturday I did drink some but not enough for the amount of time I spent on the pool deck.
Alright, it's almost time to head off to the gym so I'll get right to FMM:Simple Questions
Simple Questions
1. Outside my window I see…Snow, trees and my neighbor's house
2. My kitchen counters are…unmatching. I have one older brown laminate and a newer multi-color laminate.
3. Yesterday I drank…coffee and soda.
4. My cell phone is…MIA. KIDS!!! Where is Mommy's phone?
5. My computer is…a Mac. I love it.
6. My favorite reality show is…The Biggest Loser and Extreme Makeover (WL edition)
7. My workouts are…tough.
8. The last book I read is…Me and The Ugly C
9. My week will be….Long and busy
10. So far 2013 has been…not bad. Seems to be the same old. I like that though.
Won't you play along this week?
Friday, January 4, 2013
I Don't Wanna
Woke up with a major case of the "I don't wannas". I made the mistake of having some tea before bedtime (I was cold, needed to warm up) and ended up paying the piper for it. I did not want to get out of bed this morning and I certainly didn't want to go to the gym. But, as I tell my eight year old, we all have things in life that we don't "wanna do" but we have to.
At least I am feeling just about 100%! If I wasn't feeling well, had the "I don't wanna" and had a workout with Rudy, I'm sure I'd be writing this from the grave! So, the good news is that I am not dead and Rudy kicked the "I don't wannas" out of me. I haven't had a workout with Rudy in quite some time with being sick and having to reschedule. I almost forgot what a tough workout he give me! I was crying a lot on the inside today and had a lot of the self-doubt thoughts going on. I was thinking "why am I here?" "I can't do this", "this is too hard"...
That last one stops me in my tracks everytime! What's hard is being fat. There. I said it. I've been fat my whole life. Yes, I've just about accepted it even though I hate it so much! What I really need to remember though is that no matter what Rudy or Damon (and sometimes Bob) ask me to do in the gym, that feeling (pain, dispair, hopelessness) will only last a few minutes in comparison to the pain I feel on a daily basis when I'm missing out on activity with the kids. I've missed out on so much of life because of my weight. I'm either to afraid to participate for fear of humiliation or I just can't participate because of my size.
One of the things I'm missing out on right now is sledding. I absolutely hate the cold. I can't breathe in the cold, I break out in hives, my skin gets dry and bleeds....I hate the cold. I do, however, I like to have fun with the kids. To not be able to go sledding with them kills me. We have a little hill in our back yard that I will sled a few times down on but I wouldn't go to the park or to a ski area where they have sledding for fear of killing someone. The last three years I've thought "next year I will be at a size and weight that I'll be able to take them sledding". Here I am saying the same.thing.over.and.over. I'm counting on my being able to stick with Damon and get this weight off so I can enjoy the outdoors with the kids.
Alright, enough of that. I'm depressing myself. Gotta stay in the positive.
So, I got a good workout in today. Didn't need to rest so much between reps because my coughing is well under control. I even did 10 minutes on the arc trainer. I would have loved to do more but my feet are giving me some trouble these days. I'll catch you up on that another day.
So, we're on day 3 and I've managed to log my food for the last 3 days. I have more than half of my water in already for today, and I've scrapbooked once already this week. Not a bad start.
As far as weekend goals:
1. PLAN! I had to run through the drive thru yesterday due to poor meal planning. This weekend I'm sitting down with the hubs and we're making a plan.
2. WATER! I'm already feeling better because I've had "a lot" of water in the last two days. By "a lot" of water, I mean more than one glass. I am horrible with drinking in the winter. My water has to be room temp because I am so cold.
3. CRAFT! Saturday we'll be at my son's swim meet the whole day. As fun as the swimming is, the meets are just crazy long! So Sunday I plan on getting some me time in and crafting! (I may even do some crafting this afternoon with the little one).
Have a great weekend!
At least I am feeling just about 100%! If I wasn't feeling well, had the "I don't wanna" and had a workout with Rudy, I'm sure I'd be writing this from the grave! So, the good news is that I am not dead and Rudy kicked the "I don't wannas" out of me. I haven't had a workout with Rudy in quite some time with being sick and having to reschedule. I almost forgot what a tough workout he give me! I was crying a lot on the inside today and had a lot of the self-doubt thoughts going on. I was thinking "why am I here?" "I can't do this", "this is too hard"...
That last one stops me in my tracks everytime! What's hard is being fat. There. I said it. I've been fat my whole life. Yes, I've just about accepted it even though I hate it so much! What I really need to remember though is that no matter what Rudy or Damon (and sometimes Bob) ask me to do in the gym, that feeling (pain, dispair, hopelessness) will only last a few minutes in comparison to the pain I feel on a daily basis when I'm missing out on activity with the kids. I've missed out on so much of life because of my weight. I'm either to afraid to participate for fear of humiliation or I just can't participate because of my size.
One of the things I'm missing out on right now is sledding. I absolutely hate the cold. I can't breathe in the cold, I break out in hives, my skin gets dry and bleeds....I hate the cold. I do, however, I like to have fun with the kids. To not be able to go sledding with them kills me. We have a little hill in our back yard that I will sled a few times down on but I wouldn't go to the park or to a ski area where they have sledding for fear of killing someone. The last three years I've thought "next year I will be at a size and weight that I'll be able to take them sledding". Here I am saying the same.thing.over.and.over. I'm counting on my being able to stick with Damon and get this weight off so I can enjoy the outdoors with the kids.
Alright, enough of that. I'm depressing myself. Gotta stay in the positive.
So, I got a good workout in today. Didn't need to rest so much between reps because my coughing is well under control. I even did 10 minutes on the arc trainer. I would have loved to do more but my feet are giving me some trouble these days. I'll catch you up on that another day.
So, we're on day 3 and I've managed to log my food for the last 3 days. I have more than half of my water in already for today, and I've scrapbooked once already this week. Not a bad start.
As far as weekend goals:
1. PLAN! I had to run through the drive thru yesterday due to poor meal planning. This weekend I'm sitting down with the hubs and we're making a plan.
2. WATER! I'm already feeling better because I've had "a lot" of water in the last two days. By "a lot" of water, I mean more than one glass. I am horrible with drinking in the winter. My water has to be room temp because I am so cold.
3. CRAFT! Saturday we'll be at my son's swim meet the whole day. As fun as the swimming is, the meets are just crazy long! So Sunday I plan on getting some me time in and crafting! (I may even do some crafting this afternoon with the little one).
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Strength and Sacrifice
One of the popular trends I've seen over the last few years is the use of words to describe what your year is going to look like. I've sat and thought over the idea a number of times. I've even chosen words and thought about what I could do to become a part of the meaning of the words. I tend to always stop there. I never have the follow through. Well, that is about to change.
I'm choosing two words that are going to go hand-in-hand for me. They are words that I've had in the back of my mind for quite some time now so it must be time to do something with them.
I'm choosing two words that are going to go hand-in-hand for me. They are words that I've had in the back of my mind for quite some time now so it must be time to do something with them.
Strength: as defined by Mirriam-Webster
"the quality or state of being strong : capacity for exertion or endurance"
I know that I am strong. I can physically handle a lot more than a lot of people who carry around the weight that I do. I always say that I'm weak, that I can't handle a lot. After giving birth without drugs (not by choice), I realized that I am a lot stronger than I think I am. Even in the gym, I surprise myself all the time....just about on a daily basis. Poor Damon has to listen to me whine when I'm afraid to try something because I think I can't do it only to get it done without any problems. I always joke that "I'm supposed to trust him now" every time he shows me that I can do something that I think I can't. Putting all that aside, I would like to focus on other parts of strength...1. Learning to say "no" when I'm over extended. I don't have to do or participate in every little thing just to end up feeling over whelmed and frustrated. 2. Find the strength to ask for help. Yes, I realize it's probably more of a courage thing, but I believe to have courage you need a little strength. 3. Strength to keep going when the going gets rough. I have this nasty habit of giving up too easily. My body doesn't like to shed pounds. I work hard and tend to not reap the rewards as quickly as most do. I just need to dig deep when I've been working hard to know that my hard work will eventually pay off.
Sacrifice: as defined by Mirriam-Webster
"a : destruction or surrender of something for the sake of something elseb : something given up or lost "
I am a parent as well as a (fairly ;-)) responsible adult, so I tend to make sacrifices on a daily basis without even realizing it. Well, I've been thinking a lot more about the changes I need to make within myself and within the family unit to put myself as well as the family into a better place. This one is a little more difficult to describe as far as what I'll be doing. I need a bit more time to think about and put into words what I'm thinking and feeling about this word.
Have you thought about using a word to describe what your year is going to look like?
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Day One
I know I said I thought New Year's was over-rated, and I still do, but the idea of having a fresh clean slate to work with is quite nice. And that's exactly what I am doing. I'm forgetting about what I've done or haven't done. I'm moving on and today is my Day One.
I'd like to continue with my thought of having a bucket-list for the year but would like to focus on breaking that down a little bit more. Mini-goals, if you will.
Today's Goal: Food Journal. I already logged breakfast and lunch onto LoseIt Well, I did log onto LoseIt but there's been a problem with my getting logged on the site so I created an account over at MyFitnessPal. If you'd like to follow me, I'm LosingMyScrap.
Weekly Goal: Get back onto the bike. I haven't been able to do any cardio with my coughing so much. My thinking is that by Friday I should be well enough to do more cardio.
Goals for January:
1. Log most of my meals. I would love to say all my meals but you know I'm bound to miss one. If I log 5-6 days out of the week, I think I'll be fine.
2. By next week I'd like to use the time that I have in the gym. Damon was nice enough to set up the deal that I could use the cardio equipment for 30 mins one my gym days. So long as my lungs cooperate, I'd like to use that time wisely!
3. Walk on the treadmill on at least one"off day". I work with Damon 3 days a week, the least I could do is another of cardio. I'll work my way up to 2-3 cardio days.
4. This one is rough. I would like to get off the diet soda. I know all the bad things it does to your health....I'm just an addict. Hello. My name is Jenn and I'm addicted to diet soda.
5. Juice 3 days a week. I'm not sure if I mentioned this before or not (sorry, pressed for time or I'd look) but I bought a juicer a few months back. We use it a lot on the weekends to make some sort of fruit juice to go with breakfast. I would like to take it a step further and really get into veggie juicing.
Well, I think that's a lot to swallow for one month. Let's see how it all unfolds.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Happy New Year
Here I am! I'm here to wish you a very Happy New Year!
Again, I am so sorry I've been out of it for December. I get sidetracked and pulled in a million directions during December that I tend to lose myself.
How was your holiday break?
Mine would have been a lot better if hubs and I didn't have this flu-like bug. We both ended up with bronchitis. I'm finally feeling more like myself; he's on his way to feeling more human. It seems everyone I spoke with during the last week was sick on Christmas or during the week.
This bug kickedmyass. Sorry, but it's true. I slept a lot during the last week! We stayed in our pajamas. We did just about nothing. It was horrible and wonderful all wrapped up in one. Now that I'm feeling better, I want to get all the house projects done that we were going to work on while hubs was home (mostly organizing) as well as do some fun stuff. Rome was not built in a day.
So, what about 2013? Well, New Year's is over-rated in my humble opinion. I gave up on resolutions years ago because my only resolution has been to lose weight and you know how well that's worked out for me! Last year I made a few goals for myself, a sort of bucket list. Some of it went well while other parts went by the wayside. I thought that I would try something like that again this year.
That all being said, what are my goals and aspirations for 2013?
Well, I need a bit more time to really think about it. One would think I would have done that while laying on the couch sick last week. Oh well.
2013 Bucketlist
- The gym is holding a biggest loser competition. I was "bullied" into joining. My goal is to not give up and do the best that I can do. I'm not sure yet of the rules and regulations but I plan to use every last bit of help that I can get.
- Stop using the credit card (again). We went nearly 2 years without touching the darn thing! We just need to get through the next few weeks and then I can put the thing away and (hopefully) won't need to touch it again for a very, very long time.
- Scrapbook. I would like to spend more time in my scraproom. I have a nice space with lots of supplies and tools. The only thing stopping me from enjoying the space is me. For some reason I make myself feel guilty for taking some me time. So silly too because 1/2 of the time I'm avoiding the feeling guilty thing for spending time on myself, I'm on the stupid computer. Hello! What's the difference.
Alright, that's all I have for right now. I'll continue to work on it over the next few days. I mainly wanted to pop in to let you know that I haven't fallen off the planet and to wish you a Happy New Year!!!
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