Friday, September 28, 2012

On the Up Swing

Boy! I've certainly been Debbie Downer lately.

I hate getting into these funks, but I know we all need to experience them once in a while, it's how we learn and grow.   There is a part of me that is feeling a bit better today, but I have a ways to get it all together.

My cold is just about gone and my shoulder pain seems to be at bay. I was able to have a kick ass session at the gym.  Did a 5 minute warm up on the arc trainer, my 30 minute kick ass session with the trainer and then 15 minutes on the bike. It was the first time in a week that I was able to go from one activity to the next with little to no troubles. It's about time this cold takes it's ball and goes home!

Having a kick ass session in the gym did help (a little) with my mental status. When I have a good workout, I generally feel like I can take on the world. And I felt like that until I walked in the door to the house and realized how much work I had to do to get the place in order. There were three loads of laundry (folded) that needed to be put away, the floors needed sweeping and/or a good vacuum and the dishes were piling up. That was all I could see when I walked in the door. I HATE leaving the house dirty in the morning. I really do. And this is why. I fought the tears and frustration and got myself together so I could pick my little guy up at school. I then avoided coming home because I just didn't want to deal with all the crap that needed to get done around the house.

I fought tears for a lot of today. I need a break and there just isn't one coming in the near future. I had to push that all aside and just "do it". Now that everything is (mostly) done, I feel like a huge ton of bricks has been lifted off my shoulders.

I worked with a different trainer on Wednesday - Bob is his name. Anyway, he asked me what my triggers are for food and/or eating.  This would be a huge one! When I am overwhelmed with a million and one things to do, especially when I am burned out, that's when I will eat. I caught myself doing just that earlier this week. Instead of just doing the chores or whatever it was I needed to do, I found myself scouring the cabinet for a distraction. If I'm eating, I can't be cleaning (or whatever it is I need to do that I'm clearly avoiding).

I'm most certainly an emotional eater!  I beat (most) of those emotions today though. I just did what I needed to do and now I can concentrate on me.


  1. Awesome! Debbie Downer reveals her true superhero secret identity as "Jamming Jenn"

  2. You did awesome! Exercise is a great place to channel those frustrations. Well done for beating those emotions. Keep it up :)

    1. Thanks! I need to bear that in mind today and hop on the treadmill at some point so I'm not dragged back down! Ugh to negative emotions!

  3. Hi Jenn! Well, you remind me of me when I was younger. Sometimes, I used to see what my 4 kids did to the house, and just bawl. When your kids get bigger, you probably won't feel that way so much. I also have a problem leaving the home when it is messy, but I realized that housework always will be there waiting for me when I come back from my adventures. But adventures do not wait. You have to stop the busywork sometimes to live your dreams. You're starting to realize that too.

    :-) Marion

    1. You are right about housework always being there. I think I'm feeling like this right now because I have so much on my brain is full of clutter so the visual clutter is killing me! I got a little more sleep last night so I am feeling a bit better - for now at least.
      Thanks Marion!